The problem with busy schedules is not having enough time for the one person that should matter the most: yourself.
Attending a challenging school for the past four years have thrown my balance off.
Through the piles of work and the lengthy hours...it's difficult to find a way back. It's difficult to find a balance between my own health and my grades. THAT IS SAD.
One evening, as I was knocking out an assignment, I heard my sister calling for me from our bedroom, "Ngoc! Let's meditate!" I was hesitant. Already, in my head, I was weighing out the pros and cons of how a little self-care would affect my schedule. SAD right? The same routine plays itself every Tuesday during homeroom period when yoga class was an open door. I always wanted to do it. So I thought, "wouldn't it be fun if my best friend can join me as well?" She's learned to prioritize her time super well so whenever I invited her along, it was usually a negative.
"Ngoc, I have something I have to do...."
"ah, I understand," I'd reply. And that's the thing; I do understand. *sigh*
It's these little instances in life, when I would realize how much our work can dampen our own personal lives, that hurt me. It'd make me think, "Will I ever find a healthy and sustainable balance between my work and my life?"
I imagined being 18 to be different, you know?
I thought I'd have my life figured out by now. I thought I'd be hotter. I thought I'd be more confident. I thought many many things. And I believed they would all happen, until they didn't. Until now. haha.
It's not that they didn't happen. It's just feel that I'm not there yet. A part of me fears that I may never get to the place I want to be.
Maybe it doesn't have to always be this way. Maybe we let this process of putting our own life on hold.... we just let it happen. I've let it happen.
Western new year came and went. Asian Lunar New Year came and went.
I've had two chances to redesign this year, to redesign my life.
Little changes can and have made a difference.
This year, even if it is mid-February! x'D
I've promised myself that I'd learn to healthily and sustainably take care of my body and mind.
Why? Because I am the guardian of my own body and the guardian of my own soul. It is up to me to protect myself and make sure that I live and live well.
(also, your girl is gonna go to college so we gotta speed this process UPPPP.)
It it up to me to return to a perhaps wiser version of myself. The girl who called herself the pilot of her own life. The girl that found drops of happiness just by swinging on a hammock in mosquito-filled summers.
So.
Here's my little regimen until the end of February. (we'll need to spice things up for March. :P)
I think that once I write this down, there's no turning back. -_-
- cut down sugar intake (ooof)
- 500 jump-ropes a day
- read a book 20 minutes at least per day
- at least one Blogilates video a day
*sigh*
Little things, am I right?
Tiny steps that add up~
I'll meet you at the other side. Let's find our new balance together!
I challenge you to make two or more little positive changes in your life for just two weeks. Maintain it. And celebrate it. Let's.
From giving yourself more time to rest or more time to dance or just hang out with your friends more... anything.
With that said, I part you with this; Cheesy. But. True.
Let's live our lives a little healthier and happier. ^_^
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